I hear voices inside my head...

Can I believe my whispering friends?

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When things get personal...
Getting in is easy. Getting out alive & SANE is the hard part!

To step inside my mind you'll need permission to enter. Tolerance & respect for cultures/religions/values/sexual preference etc. other than your own is REQUIRED if you wish to be a part of my LJ world. Elitists can say hello to my steel-toe boots, they talk back quite loudly to nay-sayers, trust me. . .

All personal entries are friends locked. Gain my respect, you get the key!

Holy Asia on a cracker, I would so go good with toast!
Peanut butter & jelly, no more--if you want real flavor you best add me. ;)

//Things to know about me\\

✖ Ignore the fact that it says Caucasian on my Birth Certificate, I truly am a unique breed, as I hope you are too. This says less about my sense of entitlement than it does my station. ;) I am not deliberately eccentric, it comes quite naturally, actually. I am madly in love, with being mad.

✖ I aim to combat the epidemic of labellings, generalism, ageism, materialism, ignorance, hate etc. I see people beyond their ethnicity, nationality, creed, gender etc. Social constructions are just that; constructions. Free your mind, free yourself, free others.

DSPS. Fibromyalgia/Chronic Pain. I have each but each do not have me yet.

✖ Currently @ Humber college. Horticultural Sciecne major. Previous YorkU student; Faculty of arts (philosophy major, enviromental minor). Organic Farming Internship applicant. When I complete my PHD I plan to join the ranks of teachers (of whom I owe the success of my formative years to) the RCMP, animal cruelty enforcement or St Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band. Yes!

✖ Slightly anachronistic. Strong interest in world history. Alexander The Great. Greece. Egypt. Renaissance. Middle Ages. 20s. 50s. 60s. [Monroe, Russell, Rat Pack, Lemmon, Matheu, I Love Lucy, Price, Curtis, Newman, Heston, Sellers, Wilder, Brooks] Asian cultures (Japanese/Korean mainly) modern and ancient alike.

✖ Horror (movies). Macabre. Goth. I gravitate towards dark, somber atmospheres and styles. The night knows me more than day does, fyi. I am the Dracula to your Mina, baby.

✖ I ask questions you do not. Love science but am weary of it. Don`t believe human nature is science. Have faith, but am not always aligned with it. Would sometimes rather know myself than you. Civilized, but trying to break free. Modern, but interested in old. Becoming a goat farmer. Habitat For Humanity participant. Greenpeace & PETA supporter. Eco anarchist. Protest seeker. I flog the epistemological/psychological log all the time. Contemplate the Christian God, as much as I do a lack there of, but have never in my life doubted the existence of something greater than human intelligence. I am extremely spiritually eclectic, dabble in Wicca, Paganism, Buddhism, Hinduism, Hippieism, Naturalism... if it's an ISM, baby I've done it. I am out among the stars, grappling for signs, finding art and meaning in any and everything (including myself). What's tacked on? I'm Quite Socratic on matters of existence, knowledge the only thing I know is that I know nothing, morality etc. but have been accused of being Kant's lap dog & am proud of it! ;) I live in the temporal world, but often think myself into the eternal. Any hate here is pseudo, truly, the only religion I practice is LOVE.

✖ I am more likely to post about what is going on internally rather than what goes on externally, post are certainly not arranged in 'play by play' concise format, I'm less diplomatic journalist, more intoxicated narrator. Squinting hurts; opening my eyes wide to see the big picture is my bag, baby. If I lace my fingers with yours I might pull you along. Don't ask me to stop. Ever. Laymen terms: you will find a small percentage of day to day accountings here. For the most part my entries are filled with random soul splurges, politics, fandom rants, quotes, poetry, photos, music, videos and the like. Root following gone skyrocketing. The only thing in common each have is that they come from a pure place. I have learned it is important not to filter any emotions.

✖ My personality is multi faceted. Extreme. I consider myself consistently inconsistent like Dir en grey as a whole. I am not prudent, but frown on vulgarity. I sometimes believe myself to be Aristotle's bitch, especially when he pwns us by claiming: "excess in all things is the undoing of man", but I keep to steady, continual passions and whore with the hedonists when weak. I believe destiny and will are ours to shape, yet I'm not ignorant of the magic of fate and the unpredictable nature of the cosmos. I admire death, but am consumed by life. I believe in love, but am a cynic, I like to test myself and everything so in the end it will mean more. I think critically and seriously but am not above telling silly jokes over punch n' pie [LOL] or becoming the joke by having a pie facial. I take things seriously when need be, otherwise am VERY mellow. Sometimes I am a social butterfly, sometimes I withdraw completely. City life I find wild and exciting, but being under a canopy of trees truly sends me. I live for myself but act for others. I LOVE TO STRUGGLE just so I can emerge. I am stable but emotional. I DO know what I want, but I do not like to settle; you may call me insatiable, a bit of a carnivore and a madcap; there are so many things out there waiting for me to bite into. I do not like to waste time, but I am very relaxed, once I set my mind on something it will be attained or achieved over a drawn out length of time. I believe in SAVORING as oppose to devouring needlessly...

✖ My 'inner self' has constant make-overs but it's very rare that I am happy with any transformation. I strive to be IN the world but not OF it, which is near impossible seeing as the secular world has grown so large it's almost inescapable. I am not impressionable but I am very sensitive. True confidence in myself has never really solidified, I don't like to argue for my weaknesses but it's all too easy for me to be unforgiving and harsh with myself, my expectations are a little high. This does affect my behavior on LJ. I tend to abstain from commenting on friend's journals when I feel at a loss and tend to ramble later on to compensate, it is nothing personal. I need to get over many damn hang-ups. HA Some might consider this 'emo', well, define me as you will and try to trap me in the narrows of your mind with your conceived notions, the fuck do I care? I don't exist for you! But I assure you I am a far cry from a surly and enraged brat, I think big and I feel BIG. It's never exclusively about me either, I am very affected by what surrounds me, I like to see everything free and growing (including my mind) and when there is a limit to that, I am bothered. This feeling is real and deep; in the marrow of my bones, pun totally intended! YES! XD In other words I make like I am pained, slumped over by the pressures of the world but high on my horse nonetheless, venturing down the path of wisdom, seeing all, knowing better, hands on the reins and in turn damned by my plight and all I witness like some sacrificial demi-God but truth is... I'm just a typical neurotic freak who can't get enough but doesn't know enough to understand and keep what she does get from overwhelming her. So I'll be eternally frustrated and selfish and tongue tied and hateful! ;)

✖ I adore my musicians but regard them as I would any other human beings sometimes I am actually more critical I simply delight in lapping up their creative spills. I feel the need to mention this because as an artist myself, I identify with a more philosphically geared paradigm, which my prefered artists take.

There are a few musicians in particular who I find myself constantly coming back to due to their volcanic ways. They have enough conviction to convince the birds out of the trees. I'm never on steady ground with them in mind, meaning, they constantly push the envelope of my mind. I like to study their lyrics and their 'being' quite often, like a kid to a puzzle on an acedemic level, truly. BUT I am not a “zomg11!!!111@@kyozgod” fangirl who thinks they will marry into a jrockers family, have his babies, do away with said jrocker in his sleep, steal his soul, absorb his finesse, inherit his money & his guide to prettiness. Then pawn his guitar & run away happy; fluent in Engrish, shorter & better dressed having been proven innocent of all crimes nonetheless by the law of the holy Yoshiki. And yes trust me it always comes in that order XD However, once and a while I appreciate a good adoration session same song with a different name, I think not *shifty eyes* - this might include shemxi spam :D

✖ I refuse to believe the 80s has come & gone *hugs her Prince gear* Thus you might see me using words like groovy & funky, please do not be alarmed ;op

✖ I sleep with a stereo, I fondle my piano, and I talk dirty to my CDs cuz I am a slave to music, yah hear? Never did the garage-band thing, firstly my garage was too damn cluttered, secondly I've been classically trained in vocals and need the acoustics of an insulated room. :p Though I once did venture into the unpredictable forests of public performance, my contributions are presently at most limited to theory and leisure and neurosis.

✖ If 1 day my stash of literature should catch fire you best say your prayers & send 1000 fire fighters my way because it's gonna take a lot of river to keep the whole world from turning into a ball of raging flames if it ever happens! I read to become full. Austen & Renault are great loves of mine.

✖ I do not believe biology is destiny, nor do I believe biology determines love. Ergo, love between people of the same sex is beautiful in my eyes, if you don't agree fuckin AMSCRAY! If you close the door of your mind on people, I’m closing my door on you!

✖ If there was a human & a cat fighting for their life & for some odd reason I got to play God, but I was restricted to saving only 1 since I'm so sure this happens oftenI’d go for the creature with fur, no question! Except of course in the case of Robin Williams cuz he got a beastly case of ape chest and is the only noncute furball in existence >__>;;;. If you can worm through the jesting and subtext this implies I am quite PRO animal rights and certainly PRO environment. There are many organizations I support, including the HSI, WWF, RAN, IFAW. Issues involving these things pop up in my journal from time to time, I am very dedicated to the cause.

✖ A pacifist I am not. There are a fair share of political gushes here, though I tend to keep such entries private because I respect my friends' rights to different values. I am not comfortable without being aware of the state of federal affairs, be it known I am QUITE liberal but tend to side with the Green Party on many pertinent issues. I should mention that the Bush administration did not impress me, that I DO make known often. I also have a small crush on Obama, this doesn't mean there aren't certain policies that do not sit right with me, however.

✖ I have a photographic memory when it comes to quotes, but have trouble remembering what happened in the not so distant past. It is beyond strange how awful my memory is, so don't be angry if I cannot recall your fav food or movie, though I will try my hardest to. Hell if I love you I do it for more than your interests anyway. ;) Add me if you are a neuroscientist because my brain will take your work places! *goes under the knife*

✖ I seriously do not know what succinct means... or simple...... or shut up... or cease or... or... *bricked* This is NOT an exaggeration. You could say I live this quote to the extreme: Never be so brief as to become obscure. - Tryon Edwards

✖ I am what the kids these days call uber random; the primary threat to each & every one of your working brain cells… oh nooooes!

✖ On a typical day I fantasize about at least 100 different ways I could sever off Britney Spear’s head… if you like her I wont ridicule you I will make fun of you behind your back however when she dies of silicone poising or “over thinking” GOD help the day she actually acknowledges the weight in her head might be the cause of *gasp* - a brain don’t expect me to share your boo-hoo-ish sentiments. Success riding on boobies is not a true accomplishment kids… no matter how many agents tell you this from under the covers… *cough* I kid, I respect even the simplest beings right to live. But really, it is obvious who represents 1 of those things that make me cry blood… my antithesis if you would. I don’t take to sex capitalists lightly, but hell if you want the world to be ruled by a new breed of retard who am I to stop you from elevating the pop tart to queen status? On top of me being a pseudo angry biotch, this means I cannot stand cookie cutter artists, or redundant, self-centered people and I would barely flinch if one of them was walking on the red carpet and got suddenly swallowed up by a black hole. FINE FINE, I'm not really that cruel... I just have a morbid sense of humor, yo! XD

✖ Scary fact about Harmony #10007785948473837290001 - Are you familiar with the # infinity? Well divide it by 1, multiply that # by 100 and add that # by 1000 and you’ll know the number of psychoses quirks I have!

A tip of my hat and a deep bow to you!

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Since I am as open as the legs of Ms Spears when you comment there is a 99% chance I will add you. I am not picky. I prefer diversity, the more my Fpage resembles a batch of mixed nuts, the better. Friends cuts are rare, however I encourage connectivity. Do not add me if you do not wish to interact, even on small scale, one sided relations do no one good. Feel free to add me if interested; please keep your hands, arms & legs inside the train at all times & have a good ride!

If you are already on my friends list I love you unconditionally & will never let you get away from me *ties you all to chairs & subjects you to acts of supreme naughtiness* XD;

P.s I prefer the smell of skunk to any perfume!

The water is deep here
And high above me
I can feel the world

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*bounces around the room drunk on happiness*

awwww... thanx for the positive words hun!!!!! you know i <333 you this much *stretches arms out as far as she can* hehehe but you best wash your mouth out with soap after that comment before you score a first class flight to hell along with me XDDDDDDDDDDDDD;;; don't say too much you'll give other jrockers ideas & damn kyo's too much of a mouthful already lol.... *steals bar of soap back for herself*


damn... LJ is too much fun :D *hugs*

Yay! I was going to say...


get rid of you??? nevvvaaaaa. if you wanted to be gotten rid of i would have begged you to stay... & then tempted you with Yuki ok so maybe just a look alike *has Yuki locked in a padded closet* ;oD hehehe

i couldn't imagine my friends page without your entries... luv you lots babe ^o^


Wow, that banner totally pwns.

You know, don't kill me.


*holds cracker up*

*places the cracker on the chair*

*sits on it*

NOW I'm on the cracker!XDD

I love that banner!!!:D

bahahaahhaahaha *out of breath* that made me howl with laughter XDDD but now i have to go buy another box of crackers to feed kyopolly with x__X;;

DAMNIT, your butt is for chairs not crackers!! And Kyo's... well his belongs to Toshiyameeeeeeeh! *leaves a trail of cracker crumbs leading to the bed for Kyo to follow* ^__~ hehehe

I miss reading your posts. Where are you ? I hope you're doing ok.

Aww thanx, you are one of the reasons i missed LJ the most while i was gone... :(

Lately i've just been so geared to trying to organize my life, and it's been hard for me to find time to fit everything in. Since i started university, I convinced myself that school should be first priority so for the last few months I have given my all in that area but I'm realizing now that other areas of my life suffered because of this... X.x;; I feel a bit ridiculous knowing i've been inactive on LJ for so long :( I mean, I want a career so yes I have to study but the books I study aren’t there for me when I need them, and they can’t comment and give advice like my friends can they? So from now on, to get the benefit of both school and LJ I'm going to have to manage myself better... right?!

Weeeeee operation "get back on track" commences *copyrights* LOL *is a dork* hehehe

Gah, I thought I asked you to add my new journal o_X;;;

You have been added! Now add ME... uh... fo shizzle??

... yes.

ack, you probably did ask me too... but i've been so outa-wack lately i dunno whats goin on half the time... :S *doh* i deserve a smack in the head... just mind the bling yo lol

weee added fo shizzle, dizzle and izzle *tips her hommie hat* GHETTO STANCE Y'ALL!! teehee

!!! i knew you'd have a livejournal
its me! christina lol
the vampire lover from ARW :p
thought i might add you
you seem like a really fun and cool person.
hard to find people like that at our school :p
anyways look forewrd to our presentation! im sooo excited haha im a dork

I've been discovered?? *le gasp* And by a fellow Senecaterian no less... should I join the witness protection program? Cuz I don't want you reading my posts & telling our class how warped I really am!! hehehe Just kiddin :D

I know you've seen how I dance to the tune of bizarreness in real life, so guess I can skip the whole speech where I yammer on bout how getting to know me means you are braver than you think, eh? XD

*adds you back* Woot... now I have someone who will understand my school related rants... weee lets be bitch buddies *shakes fist at Seneca profs*

Oh sweet God, with our vampy obsessions combined damn right we are gonna kick major ARW ass... I can't wait! *breaks out the champaign in celebration*

And I look forward to next class cuz I'll get to strut my fun and cool stuff haha Seriously, thanx for the compliments~~ likewise! ^^

Hellooo. Just to get things straight, no, I am NOT that suspicious person in black outside your house with that binoculars.

Okaay, now THAT'S out of the way, hi, I'm just another fan of those Hyde & Ken ~ Matthew’s Best Hit TV clips you uploaded on youtube :D AND! I was just wondering where you got them? Or, or, if you could upload them via YSI or sth? cause youtube doesn't let us save stuff and ZOMG I want to keep those clips on my computer XD and the bowlingball!hyde one XD

So, yeah, any help would be appreciated, and THANKYOU for uploading those utterly hilarious clips XD I was just giggling to myself like some crazed lunatic while watching them o__o

You might not be the suspicious person in black outside my house with binoculars - who has interesting taste in activities I might add & reminds me of my last boyfriend - but I am the coke abusing fool who is now stalking that lovely specimen in your icon... ;) You'll have to excuse me, banana loving men just do something to me XD;;

Sure I can send you the Matthew's Best Hit show... but as long as you promise to avoid injuring yourself while laughing, I've never been blamed for killing someone with laughter thus far & I don't wish to start today teehee I seriously always watch it with a helmet on lol

I shall post the link when it’s done okay??

P.s Sorry for responding so late... lately I’ve been so attached to youtubeengrossed in my studies I’ve been a bad little LJ deserter heh heh

Ohooo or Hello I could say :o
Can I add you? It´s gooood to meet other hyper Diru fans *not in the insane way or anything*
Well, I DO like the one & one fanvid with Kyo you uploaded on Youtube.. Yeah, erhm, and that´s how I got here XD
Sooo, well, hey there

*bonks head against screen*

another diru and youtube lover is a definite good addition... i really need another diru gabbing buddy ;D *adds you*

sorry about my late reply *sweatdrop* its not that i wasn't enthusiastic i just have a habit of being a lazy assbeing overwhelmed by 1000 things, i'm a busy gal! :S it honestly takes me so long to clear the mountains of homework - & lifes' other assorted crapassness - everyday to reach freedom hehe a scholar is a prisoner i tell you so yeah when you add me beware of my "DIESCHOOLDIE" tantrums! ^o~

anyway i must admit, i've kinda been on an extended hiatus but having a new friend would give me reason to come back :D so yay! time to get LJitizied XD & i'm not always this geeky... its just when i am sober... and without cookies... or erm... forget you read that *joins in on the head bonking* lol

Wee XD *walks into room, bounces off walls, bows and walks out*

HYde fan video > YouTube > Livejournal.
We share common interests, and you seem cool.

btw, did you make the sensual phrase banner?
Cuz i like it- very indeed so much.

Weee XD ok im gonna go now. i've made sufficiently of a dork out of myself.

Ho’shit you must teach me how you went from bouncing off the wall and into a bow without killing yourself!!! XD Its a Drunken Master technique isn't it?? ^__~

Sharing common interests is a plus!! We can constantly remind each other of what kick-ass taste we have hehehe

Yep the Sensual Phrase banner and layout is all my doing... I can't get enough of the SP mangaand all the hardcore wet n’ wild sex it promotes. Sakuya & Aine is probably my favorite pairing next to Kyou & Tohru of Fruits Basket so why not pimp em? hehe Gah that reminds me I’ve had my computer on for 2 days now trying to download a damn torrent for the Sensual Phrase anime… if I don’t see it soon I WILL KILLor be forced to do my own smutty live action of the show XD Have you seen the anime? If so, wanna spoil it for me? ;)

Wee dorks united... I'm so gonna add you XD

Hello. My name's Denise. I was going through some youtube.com videos and I found your Numa Numa Diru video. Needless to say I had quite a laugh. I also find it interesting that you happen to like Fruits Basket AND you live in Ontario, Canada. Seems we've got a lot in common. I figure I'd add you to livejournal, since you seem pretty cool. Add me back if you wish.

haha youtube has turned out to be quite the device to attract friends ;) I'm glad you like my video, I think it shows the lighter side of Diru... well as light as they can get anyway... those damn boys need to smile more *bonks them on the head*

Yep I can't hide it I am a Fruits lover and a fated Canadian fool teehee What part of Ontario are you at??

And sweet lord on a poppy seed bun... you really have your share of friends ne? ...124... woooweee... I'd love to be added to that list! So yes please add away and join the insanity as will I XD

I found you on youtube.com ^_^ I lke the fanvids

wet hot and sloppy kisses to you bitch for giving me an idea for my lj name! oh yeah and for the quickie. ha.

and you know i love you... while i am hating you!

I sign in & you sign off...

Don't thank me thank Kyo's anger and everyone who contributes to itwhich includes those who have denied him a baby to munch on XD

And for future reference regarding those quickies, consider working on your dismount hun ^o~

Love to hate you too!!!

HEY...I thought I was your quickie queen...XP I guess I'll have to prove it to you on our next booty smack...or else you get no more shower peekage...XD

Looks like you've got some loyal followers my dear. Just make sure they know who has first dibs in this little hiarchy...^_~ I'm the Queen to your....um...Prince...XD

*huggle**snuggle**humpage* Luv ya *smooch*


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