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Peanut butter & jelly, no more--if you want real flavor you best add me. ;)
//Things to know about me\\
✖ Ignore the fact that it says Caucasian on my Birth Certificate, I truly am a unique breed, as I hope you are too. This says less about my sense of entitlement than it does my station. ;) I am not deliberately eccentric, it comes quite naturally, actually. I am madly in love, with being mad.
✖ I aim to combat the epidemic of labellings, generalism, ageism, materialism, ignorance, hate etc. I see people beyond their ethnicity, nationality, creed, gender etc. Social constructions are just that; constructions. Free your mind, free yourself, free others.
✖ DSPS. Fibromyalgia/Chronic Pain. I have each but each do not have me
✖ Currently @ Humber college. Horticultural Sciecne major. Previous YorkU student; Faculty of arts (philosophy major, enviromental minor). Organic Farming Internship applicant. When I complete my PHD I plan to join the ranks of teachers (of whom I owe the success of my formative years to) the RCMP, animal cruelty enforcement or St Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band. Yes!
✖ Slightly anachronistic. Strong interest in world history. Alexander The Great. Greece. Egypt. Renaissance. Middle Ages. 20s. 50s. 60s. [Monroe, Russell, Rat Pack, Lemmon, Matheu, I Love Lucy, Price, Curtis, Newman, Heston, Sellers, Wilder, Brooks] Asian cultures (Japanese/Korean mainly) modern and ancient alike.
✖ Horror (movies). Macabre. Goth. I gravitate towards dark, somber atmospheres and styles. The night knows me more than day does, fyi. I am the Dracula to your Mina, baby.
✖ I ask questions you do not. Love science but am weary of it. Don`t believe human nature is science. Have faith, but am not always aligned with it. Would sometimes rather know myself than you. Civilized, but trying to break free. Modern, but interested in old. Becoming a goat farmer. Habitat For Humanity participant. Greenpeace & PETA supporter.
Eco anarchist.Protest seeker. I flog the epistemological/psychological log all the time. Contemplate the Christian God, as much as I do a lack there of, but have never in my life doubted the existence of something greater than human intelligence. I am extremely spiritually eclectic, dabble in Wicca, Paganism, Buddhism, Hinduism, Hippieism, Naturalism... if it's an ISM, baby I've done it. I am out among the stars, grappling for signs, finding art and meaning in any and everything (including myself). What's tacked on? I'm Quite Socratic on matters of existence, knowledge the only thing I know is that I know nothing, morality etc. but have been accused of being Kant's lap dog & am proud of it! ;) I live in the temporal world, but often think myself into the eternal. Any hate here is pseudo, truly, the only religion I practice is LOVE.
✖ I am more likely to post about what is going on internally rather than what goes on externally, post are certainly not arranged in 'play by play' concise format, I'm less diplomatic journalist, more intoxicated narrator. Squinting hurts; opening my eyes wide to see the big picture is my bag, baby. If I lace my fingers with yours I might pull you along. Don't ask me to stop. Ever. Laymen terms: you will find a small percentage of day to day accountings here. For the most part my entries are filled with random soul splurges, politics, fandom rants, quotes, poetry, photos, music, videos and the like. Root following gone skyrocketing. The only thing in common each have is that they come from a pure place. I have learned it is important not to filter any emotions.
✖ My personality is multi faceted. Extreme. I consider myself consistently inconsistent
like Dir en grey as a whole. I am not prudent, but frown on vulgarity. I sometimes believe myself to be Aristotle's bitch, especially when he pwns us by claiming: "excess in all things is the undoing of man", but I keep to steady, continual passions and whore with the hedonists when weak. I believe destiny and will are ours to shape, yet I'm not ignorant of the magic of fate and the unpredictable nature of the cosmos. I admire death, but am consumed by life. I believe in love, but am a cynic, I like to test myself and everything so in the end it will mean more. I think critically and seriously but am not above telling silly jokes over punch n' pie [LOL] or becoming the joke by having a pie facial. I take things seriously when need be, otherwise am VERY mellow. Sometimes I am a social butterfly, sometimes I withdraw completely. City life I find wild and exciting, but being under a canopy of trees truly sends me. I live for myself but act for others. I LOVE TO STRUGGLE just so I can emerge. I am stable but emotional. I DO know what I want, but I do not like to settle; you may call me insatiable, a bit of a carnivore and a madcap; there are so many things out there waiting for me to bite into. I do not like to waste time, but I am very relaxed, once I set my mind on something it will be attained or achieved over a drawn out length of time. I believe in SAVORING as oppose to devouring needlessly...
✖ My 'inner self' has constant make-overs but it's very rare that I am happy with any transformation. I strive to be IN the world but not OF it, which is near impossible seeing as the secular world has grown so large it's almost inescapable. I am not impressionable but I am very sensitive. True confidence in myself has never really solidified, I don't like to argue for my weaknesses but it's all too easy for me to be unforgiving and harsh with myself, my expectations are a little high. This does affect my behavior on LJ. I tend to abstain from commenting on friend's journals when I feel at a loss and tend to ramble later on to compensate, it is nothing personal. I need to get over many damn hang-ups. HA Some might consider this 'emo', well, define me as you will and try to trap me in the narrows of your mind with your conceived notions, the fuck do I care? I don't exist for you! But I assure you I am a far cry from a surly and enraged brat, I think big and I feel BIG. It's never exclusively about me either, I am very affected by what surrounds me, I like to see everything free and growing (including my mind) and when there is a limit to that, I am bothered. This feeling is real and deep; in the marrow of my bones, pun totally intended! YES! XD
In other words I make like I am pained, slumped over by the pressures of the world but high on my horse nonetheless, venturing down the path of wisdom, seeing all, knowing better, hands on the reins and in turn damned by my plight and all I witness like some sacrificial demi-God but truth is... I'm just a typical neurotic freak who can't get enough but doesn't know enough to understand and keep what she does get from overwhelming her. So I'll be eternally frustrated and selfish and tongue tied and hateful! ;)
✖ I adore my musicians but regard them as I would any other human beings
sometimes I am actually more criticalI simply delight in lapping up their creative spills. I feel the need to mention this because as an artist myself, I identify with a more philosphically geared paradigm, which my prefered artists take.
There are a few musicians in particular who I find myself constantly coming back to due to their volcanic ways. They have enough conviction to convince the birds out of the trees. I'm never on steady ground with them in mind, meaning, they constantly push the envelope of my mind. I like to study their lyrics and their 'being' quite often, like a kid to a puzzle on an acedemic level, truly. BUT I am not a “zomg11!!!111@@kyozgod” fangirl who thinks they will marry into a jrockers family, have his babies, do away with said jrocker in his sleep, steal his soul, absorb his finesse, inherit his money & his guide to prettiness. Then pawn his guitar & run away happy; fluent in Engrish, shorter & better dressed having been proven innocent of all crimes nonetheless by the law of the holy Yoshiki. And yes trust me it always comes in that order XD However, once and a while I appreciate a good adoration session
same song with a different name, I think not *shifty eyes*- this might include shemxi spam :D
✖ I refuse to believe the 80s has come & gone *hugs her Prince gear* Thus you might see me using words like groovy & funky, please do not be alarmed ;op
✖ I sleep with a stereo, I fondle my piano, and I talk dirty to my CDs cuz I am a slave to music, yah hear? Never did the garage-band thing, firstly my garage was too damn cluttered, secondly I've been classically trained in vocals and need the acoustics of an insulated room. :p Though I once did venture into the unpredictable forests of public performance, my contributions are presently at most limited to theory and leisure
✖ If 1 day my stash of literature should catch fire you best say your prayers & send 1000 fire fighters my way because it's gonna take a lot of river to keep the whole world from turning into a ball of raging flames if it ever happens! I read to become full. Austen & Renault are great loves of mine.
✖ I do not believe biology is destiny, nor do I believe biology determines love. Ergo, love between people of the same sex is beautiful in my eyes, if you don't agree fuckin AMSCRAY! If you close the door of your mind on people, I’m closing my door on you!
✖ If there was a human & a cat fighting for their life & for some odd reason I got to play God, but I was restricted to saving only 1
since I'm so sure this happens oftenI’d go for the creature with fur, no question! Except of course in the case of Robin Williams cuz he got a beastly case of ape chest and is the only noncute furball in existence >__>;;;. If you can worm through the jesting and subtext this implies I am quite PRO animal rights and certainly PRO environment. There are many organizations I support, including the HSI, WWF, RAN, IFAW. Issues involving these things pop up in my journal from time to time, I am very dedicated to the cause.
✖ A pacifist I am not. There are a fair share of political gushes here, though I tend to keep such entries private because I respect my friends' rights to different values. I am not comfortable without being aware of the state of federal affairs, be it known I am QUITE liberal but tend to side with the Green Party on many pertinent issues. I should mention that the Bush administration did not impress me, that I DO make known often. I also have a small crush on Obama, this doesn't mean there aren't certain policies that do not sit right with me, however.
✖ I have a photographic memory when it comes to quotes, but have trouble remembering what happened in the not so distant past. It is beyond strange how awful my memory is, so don't be angry if I cannot recall your fav food or movie, though I will try my hardest to. Hell if I love you I do it for more than your interests anyway. ;) Add me if you are a neuroscientist because my brain will take your work places! *goes under the knife*
✖ I seriously do not know what succinct means... or simple...... or shut up... or cease or... or... *bricked* This is NOT an exaggeration. You could say I live this quote to the extreme: Never be so brief as to become obscure. - Tryon Edwards
✖ I am what the kids these days call uber random; the primary threat to each & every one of your working brain cells… oh nooooes!
✖ On a typical day I fantasize about at least 100 different ways I could sever off Britney Spear’s head… if you like her I wont ridicule you
I will make fun of you behind your backhowever when she dies of silicone poising or “over thinking” GOD help the day she actually acknowledges the weight in her head might be the cause of *gasp* - a braindon’t expect me to share your boo-hoo-ish sentiments. Success riding on boobies is not a true accomplishment kids… no matter how many agents tell you this from under the covers… *cough* I kid, I respect even the simplest beings right to live. But really, it is obvious who represents 1 of those things that make me cry blood… my antithesis if you would. I don’t take to sex capitalists lightly, but hell if you want the world to be ruled by a new breed of retard who am I to stop you from elevating the pop tart to queen status? On top of me being a pseudo angry biotch, this means I cannot stand cookie cutter artists, or redundant, self-centered people and I would barely flinch if one of them was walking on the red carpet and got suddenly swallowed up by a black hole. FINE FINE, I'm not really that cruel... I just have a morbid sense of humor, yo! XD
✖ Scary fact about Harmony #10007785948473837290001 - Are you familiar with the # infinity? Well divide it by 1, multiply that # by 100 and add that # by 1000 and you’ll know the number of
psychosesquirks I have!
A tip of my hat and a deep bow to you!
Since I am as open as the legs of Ms Spears when you comment there is a 99% chance I will add you. I am not picky. I prefer diversity, the more my Fpage resembles a batch of mixed nuts, the better. Friends cuts are rare, however I encourage connectivity. Do not add me if you do not wish to interact, even on small scale, one sided relations do no one good. Feel free to add me if interested; please keep your hands, arms & legs inside the train at all times & have a good ride!
If you are already on my friends list I love you unconditionally & will never let you get away from me *ties you all to chairs & subjects you to acts of supreme naughtiness* XD;
P.s I prefer the smell of skunk to any perfume!